Hope you get to feel better, it sucks to feel like that.

Have you tried taking meds? paxil or ribotril or maybe prozac? There was a time when I was VERY VERY depressed, and my therapist recommended paxil, and..well, that helped a lot, you should consider going to a psychiatrist ('cause they're the only ones who can medicate), you'll feel much better.

I send you a big big hug. mwah.